Thinking Out Loud
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Measurements
Measurements
Today I was again
surprised at the contradictory nature of most people. We all, as individuals,
live our lives in a fairly solitary manner. What I mean by that is that *I* see
life & the events around me from *MY* unique perspective. I live, act,
choose, & define things based on that singular viewpoint. While I
can, & sometimes do, attempt to explain my individual reasons &
motivations for the choices I make, that does not mean that I seek to 1) have
my reasons validated by anyone else........or 2) expect anyone else to
make *their* choices using MY reasons.
All too often, I
see people making statements about what they believe, why they believe it &
then they demolish the validity of their personal perspective by insisting that
it is the measure of someone ELSE'S validity! These people usually get to
pounding that pulpit of condemnation when they feel like they have been
measured by another & found to be lacking. What always amazes me is how
vociferously they deny the perspicacity of the other person's opinion of
them, all while they are insisting that theirs is the ONLY opinion by
which ANYone can be measured.
Lemme ask you all
this -- IF you feel that no one else BUT you can define you, then how
hypocritical is it to insist that YOU can define someone else? Another question
-- IF you must repeatedly attempt to tear down the validity of another's
opinion, then how can you expect anyone to believe that the opinion of others
is SO unimportant to you? If it WAS "unimportant" I'd bet you
wouldn't spend SO much energy trying to invalidate it!
I do think it is
possible to measure & judge others within the scope of my own experiences.
I do not think I am going to be infallible, however. My experiences, like
everyone else's, are limited, & hence my understanding is also limited.
Does that mean I will abdicate ALL responsibility for my life & just accept
anything & anyone on faith?? Absolutely not! I try hard to gather
information from as many sources as possible, & from the full spectrum of
opinion - good to bad, before I make a choice or judgment. When I am wrong,
& yes, I am at times ( I KNOW this is hard for some of you to believe!
;-D), I study my errors thoroughly in an effort to ensure that I do NOT make
such a mistake again. To me, those mistakes, from which I have learned, are the
marks on MY yardstick by which I can measure my life & my progress as a
human being. I wonder about those people who never make mistakes -- what the
hell do they measure themselves with? A blank yardstick?? Or maybe they use
someone else's yardstick & never seem to measure up? Maybe that's why they
are SO defensive when judged by those who have a well-marked yardstick?
Measure your OWN
life with your OWN yardstick! Your yardstick cannot measure the life of
another. It was not marked by their life's lessons & so cannot measure
their life. Another's life can ONLY be measured by THEIR yardstick!
Food for thought:
~"The
real contest is always between what you've done and what you're capable of
doing. You measure yourself against yourself and nobody else."~Geoffrey Gaberino
Teach a Man to Fish
Teach a Man to Fish....
As some of you
may know, I work assisting folks with disabilities. I
thoroughly enjoy this work! I get to promote, on a daily
basis, the freedom & greatness in people who have had little to
no reason to hope for either.
Most of the
people I assist are developmentally delayed in some manner. They are capable of most everything you & I are capable of, however, it simply takes them a bit
longer to assimilate the knowledge needed to accomplish a given goal or task.
This is the "delayed" part of their development. Most people think of
mental retardation as a "medical condition" that requires
"treatment". In fact, usually the only thing "required" for
folks with M.R. to experience freedom & greatness in their daily lives is a
bit of patience &
persistence by those who seek to assist them.
I am not a
doctor, I do not have a medical degree. I am not a psychologist or a
psychiatrist, I do not treat mental illnesses. I do NOT "treat
patients", I teach
people. That's it, that's all & it's that simple.
I am invited into
the lives of people who recognize that they have a vulnerability on which they
would like to work. They recognize that this is an obstacle that they are not
fully prepared to deal with so they invite me to teach them ways to
overcome that obstacle & attain their goal or goals. The weakness does not
go away, & our goal, as a team, is not
to make it go away. Our goal, working together, is to succeed DESPITE that
singular weakness.
I do not "do
for them"...instead, I help them to learn how to do for themselves. Much
like counselors of all sorts of disciplines, I rarely give directions, instead
I ask questions geared towards prompting thought & logic, study &
reason. The intention is to essentially make myself, as teacher/guide, obsolete.
I work hard to help them attain the level of self-reliance & independence
necessary to no longer need my presence & help. Some folks often see that
as a tad cruel -- refusing to "give them the answers" to problems. I
personally would be insulted by someone who thought I was not worth the time to
show me how to problem-solve for myself. I tend to treat others the way I would
want to be treated, so I only make suggestions, ask questions & mention
alternatives so that those I assist might find their own path to their
goals.
We've all heard
the old adage: "Give a man a fish, you feed him for a day; teach a man TO fish &
you feed him for a lifetime!"
I have often felt
that a lot of the people I have met in daily life are also "developmentally
disabled", although they have not been diagnosed thus. Just as M.R. can
occur through trauma to the brain, so other traumas can cause other delays in
development. Anyone who has experienced severe trauma to their psyche as a
child can attest to the ways it often hinders the natural process of developing
healthy interactions. Traumas, abuses, molestations, & neglect negatively
affect the brain's development in the earliest months & years of life. A
child whose brain has been crippled in this manner has difficulties throughout
the rest of their life in areas such as 1)forming healthy attachments, 2)
developing a healthy self-image, 3) normal nurturing of dependents. There are
other areas that are deeply affected, but those are the most apparent &
far-reaching.
Many folks who
had rough childhoods, marked by traumas & various abuses, are fortunate to
have had what professionals refer to as "helping witnesses". While
this person may not have been able to protect the child from the traumatic
event, they ARE able to mitigate the resulting damage somewhat merely through
their care, warmth & compassion following such traumas.
We learn what we
live. Thanks to a few "helping witnesses" in my own childhood, I
learned to help myself. I then turned about & found a way to help others
overcome disabilities & delays. To me, it is important to pass on that
spirit of balance, determination & self-reliance. It's rarely
"easy" to overcome our flaws, weaknesses & disabilities, but the
rewards are worth the hard work. I am damned thankful that I had some
help, a few excellent loving examples & the inner strength to overcome my
own disabilities.
Of
course.........one cannot begin the work to overcome such crippling beginnings
unless one examines their life history & reveals such events, studies them
& gets help to restore balance to one's manner of functioning.
Lots of people
will tell you that life is too short to spend much time
"over-thinking" things. *I* insist that life is too short to
dismiss such all-encompassing handicaps! Examine your life, deal with the
weights chained to your proverbial ankles, understand your own weaknesses &
disabilities, then discover ways to succeed DESPITE them! There ARE
people who can, & do, help! You just have to ASK!
Food for thought:
~"An
unexamined life is not worth living."~Socrates
~"The
more internal freedom you achieve, the more you want: it is more fun to be
happy than sad, more enjoyable to choose your own emotions than to have them
inflicted on you by mechanical glandular processes, more pleasurable to solve
your problems than to be stuck with them forever."~Robert Wilson
~"The
typical human life seems to be quite unplanned, undirected, unlived, and
unsavored. Only those who consciously think about the adventure of living as a
matter of making choices among options, which they have found for themselves,
ever establish real self-control and live their lives fully."~Karl Albrecht
~"People
who exercise their embryonic freedom day after day, little by little, expand
that freedom. People who do not will find that it withers until they are
literally ''being lived.'' They are acting out scripts written by parents,
associates and society."~Stephen R. Covey
Survivor
I'm a Survivor
In
recent weeks, I have encountered several situations that brought up this
concept, in conversation or in my own introspection. I’m really just
hashing out my thoughts on it at the moment & I do that best by putting
things into words, as best I can at least. So, here goes…
I’ve
written before on the idea of each person living & measuring their life by
their own yardstick.
It seems to me that as individuals there is no other way for us to view &
judge things except
through the unique lens of our own experience & understanding. With
that in mind, I sincerely believe that no two people will see, experience or
react, to a situation the same way. Too many variables involved for that to
occur, so…while we can, will & often must
make judgments (from our unique perspective), it seems to me only prudent &
reasonable to accept the possibility that we could be mistaken. No one will
handle or react to circumstances in the exact
same manner that another person would. We are not robots with identical
programming, regardless of how many similarities we may share.
With
that understood, let me get to the meat of this writing.
I am
tired of the “helpless victim” mentality that pervades our world today. YES, people live
through horrible, mind-boggling, traumatic events. YES, people are
victimized by OTHER people. YES,
such things have lasting repercussions, most of which are negative to the
extreme. I am not trying to be a foolish polly-anna & insist that all
things are rosy. I know, from personal experience, that bad things DO happen to
good & innocent people, through little or no fault of their own. This is
not my contention.
My issue
is with the choices people make in the aftermath
of such life-changing events.
I’ll
share an example from my own life, to better illustrate the crux of the matter,
as I see it. I was molested in my childhood, more than once & by more than
one person. It altered my perception of men, trust, & the appropriate sorts
of interaction I should seek in my future relationships. Following the final
incident, I was placed in foster-care for my own safety & was fortunate to
have foster-parents who provided a truly safe haven. I was also placed in
several counseling programs, some more productive than others of course, &
I participated in them with fervor.
That was
the moment of choice. The crossroads in my life that thrust upon me a decision
that would forever change the way I viewed others who had experienced similar
traumas. I CHOSE to ACTIVELY participate in my own healing.
I’m
sitting here wondering if I need to reiterate that….
In the
group counseling sessions, I watched many of the others express their feelings
of helplessness, powerlessness, & hopelessness. I decided that I was not
going to resign myself to the idea that I would never heal, never get past this
injury, never know a healthy relationship with a man. I shared my own terrors,
my own feelings of helplessness. I also shared my sense of rage, my hunger for
retribution, my craving for redress. I shared my need to take BACK power over my
life, my choices, my health, be that mental, emotional or physical health.
After 6 weeks, I asked my caseworker to permit me to drop the group sessions as
I felt they were no longer productive & to her query of why I felt that, I
replied that I did not wish to wallow in the pit of self-pity. It was time to
climb out
of that dark, tear-soaked pile of victims.
I did
continue to see a counselor three times a week for nearly two years. In the
years (ok, decades ;-D) since then, I have sought out further counseling, at
various times, for various reasons. I worked hard on recovery.
I did not want validation as a victim, I wanted to take back my place as a
whole person, & the only path towards that goal that existed for me was the
path of the survivor.
I chose
that path.
Let me
assure you, I did not avoid all the traps & pitfalls along the way to where
I am today. I fell prey to a few poor choices, influenced by the warping
effects of what I’ve experienced. I own those mistakes. They are mine, I made
them, & I learned from them. I actually value most of them a great deal, as
they are the indelible marks of life’s lessons on the yardstick by which I
measure my personal progress. There are some mistakes I even made more than
once, especially regarding my relationships with men. However, I was not a
victim in any
of those situations. I was responsible for my own choice to participate, &
good or bad, I learned from it. I also survived.
I look
around me today at people who have experienced traumatic circumstances & I
see a very stark demarcation amongst them. I look into the many pity-pits &
I see the wailing, moaning, teeth-gnashing hordes of victims & there,
scattered among them, a few brave souls, defiantly clawing their way out
of the pit in which they find themselves. I’m astounded to see the many hands
that grasp at them, trying with all the repressed fury of a violated human to
drag those Survivors back down into the hopeless pit of victims.
I often
stop & reach down to pull the Survivor up, lending my own strength, however
paltry, to their upward motion, against the weight of their trauma, their scars
& the seething minions of helplessness hanging from their ankles. If those
few want to survive, then I feel it’s my duty to do what I can, whenever I can,
to help them find a moment’s refuge. Someone did that for me, gave me that safe
haven where my spirit had the calmness to see that I did, indeed, have a choice
in my future. I consider it similar to the concept of “paying it forward”. It’s
not because I expect something from those survivors whose hands I might hold so
briefly. It’s not about what I get back for my effort. It’s about sharing with
others the opportunity that I was given so long ago, the opportunity to choose.
The opportunity to survive.
So, when
you are there, climbing & clawing your way up out of a pit of pity, &
someone’s fingernails are digging into your ankles, pulling you back down. When
that feeling of despair wells up sourly in your throat & you want to cry
out with rage, kicking at those “poor pitiful, lonely victims”, look up. Call
out, ask for help & accept it when it reaches its hand down to you. If you
have to kick loose a few victims, do so with no regret. Don’t look back &
get caught in the trap of the pity-pit. Kick free, & do like me – listen
for those faint calls from the survivors as they climb, & answer them
whenever possible.
One day,
the victim who tried so desperately to pull you back just might tire of the
salty brine of the pity-pit & start climbing out, hoping for help as they
feel the tenacious breath of victims on their toes. They may even cry out,
& you may hear them. Do you truly think they will refuse your hand because
you once, long ago, kicked them loose, in order to survive? Trust me, they’ll
be damned glad that you made it! The only people who will reject you are the
people who want to remain in the pity-pit. They reject anyone who proves that
there’s life to live after victimization. They reject that choice, they
deny that responsibility & they won’t survive.
Make the
choice, don’t look back, & pay it forward. I did, & I’m a survivor.
Hummer Wars
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VERY cold out this morning - 28degrees at the time of this photo! Note the ice on the pool! |
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As I took the photo of the icy pool, something buzzed over my head, & I backed up to get the following images of a pair of battling hummingbirds. |
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Back & forth, they tussled, sometimes facing off... |
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...sometimes chasing each other around the feeder... |
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...occasionally one would wait a moment, letting the other grab just a sip... |
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...before diving in to batter the other with madly whirring wings... |
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At times, you could actually HEAR the impacts! |
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At times, one would perch on the rafters, while the other hovered about, searching like a police helicopter! |
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They chased each other for nearly 2 hours, off & on... |
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Once settling on the rafters to peer at each other before another round of chase. |
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Finally, they settled on a wire to catch their wee breaths... |
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...& the peace talks must have been constructive, because the "no-fly zone" seemed to vanish for the rest of the morning! |
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...or maybe the colorful male moving in changed the strategy! |
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